April 20, 2013

I never know the proper way to start a blog entry. Should I say "hello" or some other greeting or just start talking? Anyway... 

Let's see what I have to say about the week... 

I don't remember what I did Monday, so it must not have been very interesting. Probably some housework, laundry, sleep and TV. 

Speaking of sleep I've been sleeping in till at least 10 most days.

What a lazy turd I am. 

But they say to get it while you can, right? :D

 Tuesday was a fun day- painting!!! Yep we finally got that nursery painted. It was fun too... we made it through the whole day without arguing. I'm not saying that because we often argue, because we really don't, especially lately. But doing something like that.. I guess I was prepared for an argument or two. But nope! It was just a good day. Although we didn't paint on each other which would have been fun. I said something about it and he let me know that would not be cool. I had to point out that we made a mess at our wedding with the cake and it was the best part of the whole thing. But he still wasn't going for it. Oh well! 

Anyway here's a picture of the end product:

The accent wall is called "Aqua Waters" and the other is "Cancun Sand" which I was hoping would come out a little less white, but it works. I want to use some of the leftover Aqua Waters to paint a few things in the room, like shelves. And I am really hoping to find curtains that match pretty closely, or dye some. Fingers crossed! 

Unfortunately, when we removed the tape, the color had bled through a lot. :/ Hey, we're beginners! So we're gonna have to fix that. Boooo! 

Wednesday I shampooed carpets in there and finished going through that closet. That night Clint moved the desk that was in there (while painting we used it as a table) into the guest room/office/craft room. He probably spent 9-10 hours fishing that day. He went in the morning and evening. 

Thursday since the desk was moved, I went through Clint's stuff that was still in it and got it all set up in its new space and just got things reorganized in there. I kinda like having the futon in there, a place to sit. Oh and I actually managed to scrapbook a page!! 

Now except for Tuesday, none of my days were really that full, but man I'm so tired by the end of the day. It seems so silly!!

Then yesterday it was back to work. But it was the big fundraiser tournament, so it was a different kind of day. Good different! The course is closed to the public, but there were probably 50 people in and out throughout the day. Golfers and organizers. By the end of the game, everyone had loosened up with a few (dozen) beers and were very sociable. lol. They served hot dogs throughout the day and in the evening had catered burgers and tacos and stuff from the diner. There was an auction after the tournament and that was kinda fun to watch. It's a scholarship fundraiser, so everyone ends up paying a lot more than things are worth. A lot of the bidders are owners of companies though, so its a tax write off kinda thing I'm sure. After the auction people hung out for a while and continued drinking till the organizers packed up the coolers. I ended up staying an hour late since they were still here. I could have left, and would have if they weren't out by then. It was fun, met some new people, got to chat with a few I already knew. Good times!

Should I mention that I got hit on? I should. Because it was fun to get hit on, and he was cute. And apparently has a thing for pregnant women which I just can't wrap my head around. Obviously I didn't talk to him long. And yes I told Clint about it so that's why its okay to mention it here. :p 

Oh and I've got some good news! Clint's promotion/raise went through!! He's been trying to get it for a while, and it finally went through yesterday. It's gonna give us so much more breathing room with me not working after Zane comes. What a relief!!! 

I'm a happy girl!

I don't know why I've never shared any of my belly progression pix on my blog, but here's a comparison of some of them! Including the first and the most recent. 

(Try to ignore that my arms and face have totally gotten bigger along with the belly.)

The chalk board has played a big role in his story, and will continue to! I'll use it at the baby shower somewhere and in my maternity pictures, and his newborn pictures. And of course it'll be hanging on his wall somewhere! Oh, and of course I'm gonna paint the trim the Aqua Waters color of the accent wall. :)

Alright I guess that's it from this girl! I probably won't update next weekend because my mom will be in town for the baby shower! Squeeeee! Can't wait!!!

February 15, 2013

Look at me updating again!! It hasn't even been a month yet! :D I really am gonna try to do weekly updates. I work weekends again, and its a good easy time to do it, and gives me something to do! I didn't update last week because I ended up doing housekeeping ( :/ ) on Thursday afternoon and Friday morning, worked here at the course Friday afternoon, then it snowed Saturday so we were closed the rest of the weekend. That was a pretty lazy weekend for me...

Sooo we had our big ultrasound on Wednesday!!! Our baby is healthy and perfect... and male!! Yep we are having a boy! Just about everyone thought it would be a boy, myself included, so I'm really not surprised. I was happy with the results at first, overjoyed really. He is healthy. That's amazing! But then we got to wal Mart and I saw the cutest little Easter dresses. :(  I don't get to buy Easter dresses!! I've already started thinking that our second really needs to be a girl! I feel the pressure already, from myself, its ridiculous. Boys are cute and awesome too, I know this. And I already love him so much and always will. But I can't lie that a part of me wishes it was a girl. I hope he never reads this!! LOL. I've always wanted one of each anyone, so please let the next one be a girl because I really only want two kids total! LOL

But the ultrasound was great, it ended up being just Clint and I in there, with my mom on speaker phone for part of it. He was moving his hands and his mouth... like he was eating. It was really cute. We got to see and hear his heart beat and it was just awesome. The dr. said there are no concerns with me or baby. We're all healthy and that's just the best news ever!!

(Crappy cell phone pic)

A cute ulrasound moment: She was showing us his little feet, but they were overlapping and it looked like one. But Clint counted 7 toes and he's like "woah why do I count 7 toes?!" And she told us it was both feet! What a relief that we don't have a 7 toed baby! LOL

After the appt we went to Olive Garden with Clints mom, sister and her kids. We shared the pictures and talked about the baby some, had a nice time. I was showing his 4.5 year old neice, Ellie, the pictures and there's a lot of his head so I kept flipping through the pictures saying "this is his head, this is his arm, this is his head, etc..." and at the end she asked "Why does he have so many heads?" LOL Kids are awesome!!

But what's not so awesome is that I've now gained 17lbs. Sigh. That's awful!! Dr. O isn't terribly concerned. He said its more than average, but he's not too worried, which is really surprising to me, as hard as I worked (with him!) to lose the weight. Maybe he figures I'll be able to drop it easily again? I'm doubting I will though! He said to eat lots of protein and watch my carbs and sugars. I know this, but its difficult. So so difficult. I really need to find more yummy protein sources. Because I'm just not that into meat right now. Maybe protein bars or something would be good. Of course that's sugar. I don't know.

The week before last I was committed to walking! Well I was gonna go to the gym but it was nice out so I figured it made more sense to take Z for a walk. So we walked... for about 15 minutes. Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday I got preoccupied helping Clint with something. Thursday I ended up working in the afternoon. Friday I worked. Saturday & Sunday it was cold and snowy. And yeah I'm sure I have excuses for Mon-Thurs, but.. The walking thing just didn't stick! I'm gonna try it again next week! Wish me luck!! I just need to get SOME exercise! And with those short walks I did take, I realized how out of shape I'd gotten. They didn't wear me out, but they were short, and I could feel that it was more effort than it should have been. So I really need to get back into the swing of things. Wish me luck!!

So I am hoping to get to go to Ellen's Mother's Day show. LOL For YEARS I've been saying I want to go to her Mother's Day Show. Its an audience full of women expecting their first. I'll be about a month and a half away from having him at the point. No reason I can't go! She gives away some amazing stuff and I've always wanted to go to her show! I wrote in, so we'll see! I'm sure there are thousands of people trying to go though. So wish me luck on that also!

What else? I'm slooooowly working on getting my craft room cleaned (its a freaking disaster!!) so that I can start scrapping again but also so that I can move stuff from the current guest room into there. The guest room is gonna be the nursery, so I need to get on with it! I'm gonna move the futon into my craft room and maybe the desk thats in there. It should fit. We don't really need a computer desk, but its a good place to keep the printer and computer stuff. Once I get all that done I can deep clean the nursery... carpets, walls, windows, whatever. Get it super clean for our son! Then we can paint and start putting it all together.

I'm trying to make myself a little chore list. Thing I need to do daily, and things I need to do weekly, and then a list of things I need to do before baby comes. I'm only working three days a week now, there's no reason I can't be getting house work done regularly the other 4. I'm setting one day aside for going to town. I should never have to go more than one day in a week, but I guess you never know. But its at least a guideline. When I break things down into daily, its really not that much work. Its like an hour or so a day (plus laundry) if I'm keeping up with it. There's no reason I can't handle that, and be able to work on the extra pre-baby stuff too!

Oh I can't believe I didn't mention that, well the morning after the ultrasound I was laying in bed, just waking up, and I could feel him moving like crazy!! Until then, I hadn't REALLY felt him in a way that I was sure was him. But this was definitely him. I feel like seeing him and how big he is (Big, btw, I think he's gonna be huge. eek!) and where he is helped me wrap my head around it all and now I can feel him more. Well it makes sense today anyway! And today I was sitting here at work, just doing my own thing, and I felt him kick! I wasn't even trying to feel it, just there he was, kicking and moving around in there, for several minutes! It made me giggle and smile real big and its just the best feeling ever!! I love him so much!! I can't wait till Clint's able to feel him. He'll love it. He loved seeing him at the ultrasound. I love how excited Clint is about the baby! He's as thrilled about it as I am and that is great!!

Okay I don't think I have anything else to add, and really, I've babbled enough! So thanks for reading! :)

January 27, 2013

     Well what a slacker I've been!! Seriously meant to update FOREVER ago! Well, in my defense, I've been a little preoccupied, because........

....but chances are you knew that already! I had every intention of updating the blog shortly after announcing on Facebook, right around Christmas, but that just didn't happen! My bad. 

     Anyway, a little back story because I wasn't super chatty about this round of TTC. At least I don't think I was. I got off the pill in January. Nothing. So I got back on Clomid for June-Sept. Nothing! I decided to skip the Clomid for October because they made me pretty moody this time and I didn't want to be weird while on vacation. So we had a GREAT time in Oregon with my Mom and Keith. A great time. Like, the best. But more on that later. Toward the end of October, I was expecting my period, thinking I COULD be pregnant, but we didn't put a lot of effort into trying that month, not sure if/when I ovulated, so I really didn't have my hopes up too much. I took a couple tests in mid-October, one at the clinic when I had a bladder infection and it was negative. She put me on the baby safe antibiotics anyway. I had a few other signs.. I remember my boobs being sore at the gym, had some hot flashes. Well on the 23rd I got my first for sure positive test. I had tested the days before with the cheap tests, and I never even told Clint. They were very faintly positive, but I wasn't getting my hopes up till I finally used a good test and there it was!! Two beautiful pink lines! I tested 3 days in a row, and it only got darker. It was really real!! 

     In the beginning I was more scared than excited. You can read my TMP journal for more details about the first few months. Its mostly symptom updates because I realized that I didn't document that very well the first time I was pregnant, and I was really wanting to compare. So I tried to keep up with that kind of thing so that I have comparison for next time. Really I wanted to me sure that this pregnancy didn't feel like the first one. I really wanted it to be opposite, if that makes sense. My major symptom has been lack of energy! Especially the first trimester. I just wanted to sleep all the time. I was napping at the end of my lunch breaks and again after work (for an hour or two) and still going to bed by 10. I lost what little desire I had to cook, and I'm not into big slabs of meat anymore. Like pork chops, steak, burgers. Bleh!! I can do jerky, sausage or ground beef in marina sauce over pasta, lunch meat (yes, I heat it), anything little like that. But big pieces just grosses me out right now... unless its fried. For some reason fried chicken or steak is still yummy to me. Poor Clint has been such a trooper with the lack of cooking! Lately I've been more apt to cook, but I still don't want anything like the aforementioned things, which is the bulk of what we used to eat. So I hate to admit that we've started doing hamburger helper here and there, and frozen lasagna. If it was just me, I would probably have pasta, pizza or boneless wings every night for dinner. Or flautas from the deli. I swear I can live on those right now. Mmmmmmm!! So my energy is coming back over the last month or so, and that's good. BTW, I'm about 17 weeks now. 

     I am starting to show. I guess I wasn't expecting my body to change so fast. About a month ago I realized I needed maternity pants. Actually probably more like 3 weeks. I don't know why I thought it would take longer. But I've got a few pairs of maternity pants now, and already had enough shirts that will work for a while. Maternity clothes at this point are a pain in the ass. They like to ride down and I feel like I need a belt all the time. But I'm getting used to it. Maternity pants don't hold in your gut the way jeans do. Regular jeans totally hide that low gut I've got and maternity jeans really only enhance it. It took a few days of maternity jeans and kinda letting it all hang out to accept that that's how it'll be for a while. I worked so hard to lose weight and I've been sucking my tummy in since middle school. Not being able to do that, and having to let it show and try to be proud of it is a whole new experience. It bothers me that it bothers me, ya know? Especially the first time I wore maternity jeans. I was so self conscious. I caught myself walking around Wal Mart with my hand over my tummy just so people would know I was pregnant. I feel like I look like I'm farther than I am. But I'm getting used to it, and it bothers me much less. I look pregnant. I'm happy to be pregnant and I need to embrace it! So what if I look farther than I am?! 

     Speaking of my body, I've gained about 13 lbs already. That worries me, but Dr. O doesn't seem concerned. I haven't specifically asked him about it, but whenever I see him he says "weight's normal, urine's normal, etc" so I guess its ok. It obviously doesn't worry me enough because I eat terribly. Well I already mentioned the hamburger helper. Also cookies and well pastas and a severe lack of veggies. Sigh. I did so good for so long and now that I'm eating for two, I'm eating crap, and that's not good!! But I can't find the motivation to change! I just know I'm gonna fail the GD test. :/ With the lack of energy, I obviously haven't been to the gym. I kept going for a couple weeks after I found out I was pregnant, then realized that time would be better spent sleeping. And I was right. My body needed the rest. I need to start going again, just to walk at least and get some kind of exercise. I really don't want to gain all 80 lbs back while pregnant. :/ 

     What else? Oh.. work! I get to go back to the golf course very soon. Probably the second weekend of Feb! Yay!!! Housekeeping is killing my back! I've been helping with the hotel and guest houses the last month or so, and making beds is just awful! SO happy to be getting back to my cozy little desk job till baby comes!! 

     Oh yeah so our trip to Oregon was great, as I said. Clint and Keith hit it off so well. They went hunting and fishing and just had a great time together.. they have a lot in common! Mom and I shopped and spent a day with Grandma and relaxed and that was nice too! Zoey had a good time with their dogs, even if little Willie is a little territorial! My Z put him in his place! LOL She's so tough! We spent a couple nights at the casino.. no big wins to speak of, but it was fun to get out and do that kind of thing. Clint doesn't normally go for that sort of thing, but he had a good time too! 

     Speaking of Clint, its his birthday, and I've got birthday brownies to make, so I better stop rambling now. I'll try to update more, but you've heard that before... 

Sept 8, 2012

LOL I love that the first line of my last post states that I plan to start updating every weekend. And that was on June 2nd. Oh well, shit happens!

So that weekend ended up being my last at the golf course. They did some rearranging of people and I got the short end of the stick and got booted out of the golf course. I was so bummed. I love my golf course and all my regular customers! But oh well. They did offer me another job with townsite (townsite runs everything around here), and I am a cleaning lady now. Yes, me, a cleaning lady. Doesn't fit me well, but I'm truckin' along! I've been doing it a few months now. I clean the conference rooms, the laundromats and empty houses, mostly. The conference rooms and laundromats are daily (I work M-F, 8-5) and the empty houses are as they come along. I also do the random things they ask me to. Pretty much I'm thier bitch. lol. Last week I spent an entire day with the movers they hired to move furniture from 4 intern houses into the storage room. I'm not there to help, just to let them into the houses and tell them what to take and where to put it and  that kind of thing. A couple weeks ago I and a few others were moving all the junk (and I mean junk!) out of the old cafe because they've got people wanting to look at the space, I guess. It would be great if that got reopened as some kind of food place! I still get to cover at the golf course when needed, and I've worked at the gym a few times too. So I do it all. And I still do the mine tours.. I get to take time away from the cleaning job to do that, so its nice! :) I didn't want a full time job, and I still don't. But it's what I've got, so I'm managing. I've learned alot as a cleaning lady, like razor blades are great for so many things, and pumice stones make toilet bowls shine! But do you think my house is cleaner? Heck no! By the time I get home, the last thing I want to do is clean. I still keep it as clean as I have to, but its not great. And I don't cook as often as I used to. I mean I used to cook every night except for the random occasional eating out, or him cooking, of course. But now I can't tell you how many times I've initiated "fend for yourselves" nights. That's not me, and it has to stop! So I've been making a greater effort lately to cook more often. Now, when I do clean my house good, I do it better than I used to, and I have more of a system. I guess that's a plus.

With all this working, I began slacking off with the gym. Its a fairly physical job (some days more than others), so I felt like I was getting a decent enough workout in at work. And I would come home so exhausted and the gym became so unappealing. I would still go 2-3 times a week, usually just do cardio with the occasional weights. Of course I also eat more... a lot of granola bars and things throughout the day. But I've still maintained around 197-200lbs, and I've been ok with that. Up a little from my lowest weight (193) but still not bad. Well lately I've noticed that I LOOK like I'm gaining some back. My tummy is a little bigger and my pants are a little more snug. So I pulled out the old measuring tape and OMG! Apparently I'm losing muscle, so therefore not gaining so much weight, but still getting fatter. Not cool. I'll post the measurements in a minute, but I want to say that they lit a spark under my ass and I am back at it!! I hit the gym every day this week, after work. If I bring my clothes to work instead of coming home to change, I'll actually go. I've done at least 4 weight machines each day... I did all the weight machines twice this week which used to be common, but not so much lately. And I'm trying to challenge myself with weights again, by upping the weight I do. Building muscle cuz I want to see those inches fall right back off, and then some. I'm really glad this motivation kicked in again, and really hope it sticks! It's been about 6 months since I've really been in the swing of things and I guess I needed that break, and now I need to get back in gear. I'm counting calories again and have stayed within my calorie goal all week! Woot woot! I have adjusted my calorie goal (I'm using MFP again) though.. before I had it set at trying to lose 1.5 lbs a week and a sedentary lifestyle. Now I've set it at 1 lb per week, and a "lightly active" lifestyle. I could probably say I'm "moderately active" but it depends on the day, so I'll underestimate it. So my net calorie goal now is 1800 which is really easy to stay within. Last time I was counting calories I think it was at 1450 or so. I'm not as strict on my diet as I was a year and a half ago when I started this weight loss journey. I'm not really watching carbs or anything (and I probably should be), I'm not cutting out soda (yet). I'm just watching calories for now. After my next blood draw (should be soon), if my blood sugar is up I'll probably start watching carbs again. If my blood sugar is still good, then yay! When I say "good" of course I mean "better"... it still wasn't where it should be at my last check. Which was like 6 months ago. Damn... Dr. O dropped the ball on that one, I was having it checked every 3 months! I'll have to get an appt made for that.

Anyway. The measurements! (I used to call my hips my waist (beause I didn't know where my waist was, lol) and my wasit my torso, so I'm fixing that now, and calling it right.) (Last time I measured was mid-March, the difference will be in parenthesis)
Sept 5, 199.25 lbs (^4lbs)
Hips: 47.25" (^1")
Chest: 37" (^1.75")
Bust: 43" (^.5")
Thigh: 25" (^1")
Waist: 38.5" (^1")
Arm: 13" (^.75)
Butt: 43.5" (^2.5) (not sure if I measured that exactly the same as it was a new addition..)
So, see! Gain gain gain! Not good!

So enough about that. Clint and I are taking a real vacation at the end of the month, and we'll be gone for a full week and a half! We're driving to Oregon to visit mom and Keith. Clint & Keith will do some hunting a fishing. Mom and I will do some shopping and talking, and it'll be a good time! We're spending a full 7 days with them, with 2 days driving on each end. On the way there, we're planning to stop at Shoshone Falls in Idaho, just for something to do that's Zoey friendly. Of course we're bringing Z! I'm so looking forward to it, I think we really need this!

I think I'll end this for now. I've got to get dinner going for the husband (because its what good wives do!) before he goes to work. I'll try to do this more often now that I'm on the weight loss rollercoaster again!

NOTE: I typed this yesterday. :)

This one will not be a novel! I don't think...

So I'm loving being out in the working world again. My safety classes were boring and I spent the majority of the time chatting with the instructor (I was the only one in the class) about unrelated things. But that at least made it less boring. I worked Sat & Sun at the golf course and I was the only one there all day both days, and did fine. I had only had 2 hours of training a few days prior. Clearly its an easy job! And pretty boring if there's not enough people needing golf carts. But hey I will get caught up on my reading, if nothing else. BTW, the golf course is 10 hour shifts. Yowza! The best part of that job is driving the golf carts.. super fun!! hehe.

I had the driving class today and did better than expecting. Of course it wasn't physically driving... just a class and a test. But I don't get the sticker saying that I passed until I drive with someone else a few times. I kinda like I have my permit. In the next couple weeks I get to go on a few ride alongs with the other tour guides, then I'll get to drive quite a few times with one of them with me before they send me out on my own. I'm SO thankful for that. I want plenty of time to get comfortable driving in the mine and in that big van!

I'm using my down time (well, some of it) at the golf course to "study" for the tour guide job. My biggest fear about the job is not having anything to talk about. I'm supposed to be informing these people... I need to first inform myself (another reason i'm glad I ahve a while before doing the tours on my own), so I borrowed a book about the history of Bagdad, written by someone who worked for the mine for many years, starting in the 30s I believe. I'm taking notes and I'm gonna reorganize them and study the crap out of them. I just feel like I have no business being in this position at this point. I want to know my stuff!! I am SO looking forward to my first ride along though! I've never been on mine property, ever! So just getting to be out there and seeing the things I've heard Clint and others talk about for so many years will help me gain understanding.

So anyway, working is good for me! It gives my days off purpose. I feel like I have to get things done so I end up being more productive. It feels good! Although, its caused me to have to drop for 3 DVDs at a time from Netflix to 2 at a time because I haven't been keeping up! I may even drop it further... we'll see how it goes! It's hard enough to keep up with my DVR. See.. I have a life again!! :)

IDK if I mentioned this in my last post, but I'm a size 14 now. A year ago I was a 22. Just sayin'. Not much has changed with my weight.

Alright, longer later! It's bed time for this girl...

March 2012

Maybe I should start naming by posts by the month that they're posted, because I generally only update once a month. It's a thought!

Well normally I start with weight talk, but I had too much fun on St. Patrick's Day to lead with anything else!!I went to Prescott to celebrate with two of my best friends, Jenn and Jess (a bunch of J names, as we realized every time we introduced ourselves to people. lol). First Jenn and I did some shopping at Ross where I found a shirt that I love, then we met up with Jessica for more shopping. Then went to Jenn's house to get ready. We went to dinner at Applebees at around 8. Apparently Applebees does karaoke on Saturday nights. So I rocked some Kesha! I've been wanting to do Tik Tok karaoke and I finally did and it was so much fun, even if I was a nervous wreck. BTW, I was the first to go for the night. I was so brave. From Applebees we headed downtown... where it was dark. Not just because it was night time, but because the power was out all over downtown. Totally creepy but cool! Thankfully, Matt's had backup power (making them one of the two bars with power that night), so they were letting people in and it got crowded fast! It took a little while for them to get lights and music going, but once they did the party was on! And before the lights and power, everyone was so friendly. It made for a great atmostphere. We made friends with a group or two of people, just had a great time talking and dancing and laughing.. and dancing. And dancing. Oh, and did I mention dancing? I have never been so dancey.... in public anyway. It was awesome. I was fearless. So not like me. But I look a kagillion times better than I have in the past and I guess I have a lot more confidence. And OMG more stamina!! Apparently I'm in pretty good shape because I danced for hours and didn't get tired. I outlasted my friends (who, if you don't know, are far from overweight). I wasn't even afraid to stay out there when they were cooling off. It was awesome. I can't express enough how much fun I had. I wanna do it again!! LOL And I think it's safe to say that we and our little group of friends for the night, were the life of the party. Seriously amazing night. Okay... I think I'm over it.. LOL.

So I had planned to come home Sunday, but it snowed and I got stuck because I'm an Arizona driver, not accustomed to driving in the snow. So I made it home Monday, with a cold. I can complain but the cold was so worth it after having so much fun.

On Tuesday I went into the staffing agency to talk about a part time, temporary job they had available at the golf course. While there, she also mentioned another job doing tours at the mine. So I took both of them! I have safety classes (MSHA) Monday-Wednesday, golf course training Thurs morning, another class Thursday afternoon. I get Friday off (which is grocery shopping day) and I work at the golf course on Saturday and Sunday. I might have the driving class the following Monday. And all of a sudden I have a life. But after the first week, it will calm down quite a bit. I'm not sure how many hours to expect other than the golf course will be Friday-Sunday until the person that I'm filling in for is able to return. I'm not sure how often I'll be doing tours, no more than 3 times a week, and likely not that often.

I have to admit, the tour guide job makes me nervous. I'll be representing the company and have to make a good impression on these people, have to drive well, and be super friendly and informative. I have A LOT to learn about the inner workings of the mine and the history of the town and all that. I really should be studying right now!! It's a totally different kind of job for me, and I am nervous, but also excited! It sounds really fun and it's a challenge and I don't often challenge myself but I believe I can do it. And if I can't, well, then I have to quit. No big deal, right? So there, I'm gonna take a chance and go for it! Woot!

Anyway it'll be nice to have a little extra money coming in so we can get out of this rut. Little by little we're getting there!

Okay I guess now I'll talk aboutthe weight stuff. So today I weighed in at 195.5lbs. Not bad but not great. I think my lowest is 193. I didn't go to the gym for over a week (sick) and today was my first day back, so hopefully I can start to drop the lbs again. But I haven't been doing great with food. Sigh. I need to get back on track but just can't find the motivation I guess. I mean I haven't gotten all my old habits back and I'm still trying and doing okay, I'm just not doing nearly as much as I could be. I'm not sure if I have a new set of measurements... I probably do. But I'm not gonna mess with that today. I do, however, have a pair of size 14 jeans on right now. :) That makes me happy!!

I am worried that working will interfere with my workouts. Next week with all the classes wil be tough but I'm gonna try to go to the gym right after classes, at least for a half hour. After that it should be part time enough that it's easy to fit in at least 4 trips to the gym a month. At least I hop so! I know that when I'm at the golf course on the weekends, I'll be skipping the gym. Partly because the gyms closed on Sundays and closes early on Saturdays. Maybe I'll try to go Friday evenings. I wish I was a morning person and could go before work. That's very unlikely though! Maybe if nothing else I'll walk to and from work. But I won't because I'll always be running late. IDK. But if I go Mon-Thurs, that's good. So any other work I get, I need to work the gym into that schedule. We'll see. I guess I can't really plan it yet because I don't know what to expect. I just REALLY don't want to gain that 80 lbs back. I really don't want to gain 10 back because that's how it starts right? Little by little. Nope.. no way... Not gonna happen with me. I will just have to find ways to fit my workouts in!!

I am thankful that I won't be working around food though. That would be a bad temptation. I'm sure I'll bring snacks to work but being away from fried food and donuts is a good thing!!

Well I think that's all that's on my mind at the moment. I'm so excited about going back to work and being around people again!! I've been in such a good mood ever since I found out! I'm sure I'll update soonish about my jobs!

Till next time....